ComplaintS

rotten luck. whatsup with the flu? the bias treatment from lulu? the broken bowl? the cut on my lil finger? the almost-fall in the toilet? the sudden visit of my thing?

stupid haseenah, how could you?! why did you only give bobo birthday card? where’s mine? okay, im not important, i shant expect anything from you any more. i was so sad that day that i nearly cry.

life’s unfair. when you be nice, others think that there’s something under the sleeves.

let me cough my sorrow out.

ran

on 31.08.2008, i ran the nike human race with 25 other cities in the world. our school won the school category. ahh .. but.. i was behind the time by 3 secs. im sad. hais..

physically cant make it, mentally, i hope i can continue to make it. haha.

:)

:)

FINALLY! I get to eat my “sharkfin” ramen! wahahaahha! thank you bobo for satisfying my craving. my stupid bf is useless, you’re the best! aha. where should i go for hols end of the year…………..? korea? xD

I..

am puzzled.

am sad and disappointed. have smooth bgr but rough f/s. when would i find that good person, good companion?

people take advantage of her. people mock at her clumsiness and stupidity. she is a joke, people laugh at her. she is always the side dish. her birth is not significant enough to be celebrated. She knows it all, but she just hopes that miracles exist. hope that her loved ones would not hurt her too much.

too much to ask for? for me, maybe..

 

attention seekers

friends ive only a few. but these a few of them are enough to make my life complete. i never thought i could open up to more people until i met them. people who shower me with lotsa care and love, unconditional love (maybe not) haha. im such an attention seeker, so are they. im a possessive and jealous friend, my way of showing my love.

5 months time and everything is going to make its turning point…..and i wish that day would never come…uncertainty..fear and insecurity.

huehuehue

I was totally possessed! I cried my lungs out and felt so much better after releasing all the tension inside me. I guess i cried so loud that the auntie lived in 13th storey could hear me. oopps. im sorry, im just too.. ermm.. compressed? yeah.

If you were to make me cry like how i cried yesterday, I WILL BREAK OFF FROM YOUR HEART and depart for another’s !!

nothing but disappointment

no one is ever there for me for the past few days. pillar is collapsing and my mind is weakening. everytime people lean on me, my feelings for them would go all way out. i dry up so easily that i desire for nourishment so much. thts probaby why i get greedy over time. i want to be believed, i want to be trusted. i dont want to be doubted, i dont want to be wronged. just let me do whatever i want to do. i know im pathetically realistic so please just bear with it. im sorry but selfishness (even regarding love) totally turns me off. cruel fact but i cant help it. im shaped that way.

i appear to be so easy that people presume that ive no feelings at all. so thats why people around me are treating me like weeds.

maybe i shld be removed one day, for the better of others..

fearful

心很痛

我真的很怕

害怕失去挚爱的亲人

害怕失去生命的火源

我真的不能去想象没有她的日子

fu*k sh*t. What the hell was i thinking about. Nothing will go wrong. Everything will be fine…  you’re just scaring yourself yvonne…

tears just keep flowing out.. im just scared.. i have not grown up yet. im still young. i still need you..

 

 

chilli

ive finally realised how irritating it is to have a friend who has a boyfriend/boyfriend-to-be. which means, ive realised how irritating im to others.

stop demanding me to hear. allow me to speak too. if you think my voice can be ignored, then please, please slash off my tongue and burn my lips.

yes, i know

thanks for the flowers, thanks for the kitten. thanks for the memories, jotted down in a black book. i dont know how long it would last but i hope for everlast. however, nothing is constant except changes. im not grateful, im touched. im not just happy, i feel loved. at least except for my family, im someone important to somebody. thank you for all the forgiveness and pampering. princess exists, and i finally believe. i would embrace this dream with my heart and soul before it ends with broken pieces. i love you, now, and you’ve gained the greatest trust, dont spoil it.

im astonished at how different our views would become over the year. i accept and am happy about who im. my beliefs may be influenced over time but my principles would not shake a bit.

how to be a good person?