messed up.

Things have been rather shit messed up for me. grandmother just passed away last sunday. Time flies and my grandmother has left the world for a week alrdy. i could never dare to imagine the day that my mum leaves me. it must be really hard for her to accept the fact. one moment we were carrying so much hope, thinking that things are just going to get better. i didnt even have the chance to let my grandma have the chance to become a great grandmother. everything was just too sudden. On the day where she was sent to the hospital, she was given a dosage of anesthesia and she never wake up from then on. i really miss her. i could remember how she used to cook so much food whenever we came back to visit her during cny. She’d always give me sweets and praise me.

To have a healthy body is so impt, w/o one, you cant enjoy all the good things in the world. In my life, friends come and go. Good ones stay and forever giving you support and go to a large extent to make you happy. So few, so little .. none.. all along ive been getting heartbreaks and ive started to have a more positive mindset. just close one eye, feel less, think less and be numbed. dont carry too much hope and be happy with my current situation. every action counts and i see it clearly cos i pay attention to details. details are usually things that determine what kind of person you are, for me to decide what kind of attitude i should use.

thnks girl for showering me with all the attentions, though very noisy but im really really glad to have a friend like you. you’re always there and available for me.